Friday, December 28, 2012

30 years

Recently while I was at my mom's house, I asked her to get some of Brian's things out so we could look at them.  There are a couple of boxes in a storage room full of some of Brian's old things.

 Inside the box, there was old trophies, scouting items, old school papers, clothing, a hand-held football video game (that still works), etc.  There was also clothing from the night he was killed.  Sweats that had been cut off of him.  (You can read more about the accident here.)

This year marks 30 years since the accident.  It is so weird talking to my mom about it now, and getting her perspective on everything.  My mom was 41 years old when Brian was killed at age 12.  I am 41 now, and Jace (my son) will be 12 in 5 months.  So weird.

Jace really does remind me a lot of Brian.  Brian was just an all around good kid.  He kept his room clean, was good at sports, amazing piano player, just so multi-talented. 

As my mom and I went through Brian's things, there was times that we were laughing hard and other times very quiet, blinking back the tears.

We found a folder that he used in 7th grade.  The folder had writing all over it.  We were cracking up at some of the things we found and read.

There was a also a letter from Brian's friend Sonja.  It was just like slipping back in the past. 

Brian had a crush on Melanie when he died.  I remember Melanie coming over with her mom after the accident.  They brought a poinsettia with them.

It's amazing how much I remember from 30 years ago, and I was only 11 years old at the time.

We miss Brian a lot.  It has been such a long time since we have seen him.  What a blessing to know that we will one day see him again.

You can read another blog post about Brian Here.

Saturday, December 1, 2012

Attitude of Gratitude - Day 30

Day 30 - My last day for my "Attitude of Gratitude".  I have spent the entire month of November posting about things I am grateful for.  It has really helped me to see all the blessings in my life.

The last day of November also just so happens to be my birthday.  I turned 41 this year and it happened to fall on a Friday.  Do you know why birthdays are so great on a Friday?
  • Kids come home from school and you don't have to bark at them to start their homework.
  • You can relax and go out, and it's not a school/work night.
  • You don't have to set an alarm that night, knowing that you are sleeping in the next morning.
It was kind of an uneventful day, but it was a good day.  I spent the morning cleaning my house.  I enjoyed cleaning, with a little Christmas music in the background.  I also spent a lot of time on the phone with several of my siblings.

Before I knew it, it was noon and I still hadn't showered.  Shortly after my shower (before make-up and hair being done), there was a knock at my door.  I was thinking, "Oh crap!  I don't look too cute right now!"  I wasn't going to answer the door, but did it anyway.  I was completely shocked to see my friend from Canada standing there with a bouquet of flowers in her hand and a birthday card.  Our friends from dental school were traveling to Utah from Canada and stopped in town on there way through to buy flowers, and drive over and drop them off.  Thanks Mike and Shantel!  What a wonderful sweet surprise!  Gosh, I am blessed with great friends!

That night, John and I went out to dinner to celebrate.  After dinner he wanted to take me to the mall or somewhere to buy me something.  I must be getting old, because I just wanted to go home and relax.  Oh man, that has GOT to be a sign of old age.  Don't worry, I will cash-in on a little birthday present later. :)

It IS a little painful getting older, and looking older, but I am trying to grow old gratefully.

Thursday, November 29, 2012

Attitude of Gratitude - Day 29

Day 29 - I am so grateful for all the modern conveniences in my life.  I can't imagine life without heat, hot showers, my washer and dryer, stove, microwave, refrigerator, dishwasher, vehicles, telephones, cell phones, computers, the list could go on and on.  I'm sure glad that I am not cooking dinner over a fire or washing my clothing in the creek!  We sure have it good these days!  I don't think we realize how good we have it, until something breaks down, or needs to be replaced. 

It also makes me so grateful for my pioneer ancestors and all they had to do, and give up, in order to travel to the West.  Heavenly Father has blessed me with so much!

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Attitude of Gratitude - Day 28

Day 28 - I went to lunch with my husband today and cried through most of my lunch.  Oh boy.  I feel like my body is falling apart lately.  Could that be the joys of being in my 40’s?  I am 40 today, but will be 41 on Friday.  Ugh.  I have been dealing with TONS of foot pain from my surgery (that took place 4 months ago). 

Also, I have tendonitis in my right shoulder.  I have had a great deal of shoulder pain for several months.  I am not sleeping well at night because of it.  Recently, I went to an orthopedic surgeon and he sent me to a physical therapist.  So, twice a week I go to physical therapy for my shoulder....and I limp in with my hurt left foot.

My foot has been so tender lately, and I noticed that there were sores starting to form on top of the scar tissue.  I finally made an appointment with a podiatrist to see if there was something that could be done about my foot.  I went to my appointment today with a dark cloud following me all the way there.  I had this sick feeling that he was going tell me that there wasn’t anything that could be done with that amount of scar tissue and that I also had permanent nerve damage.  I was kind of prepared for some crap-crappy news.  Wow, what a real glass-is-half-empty-bad-attitude.
The doctor came in the room, took one look at the bottom of my foot and instantly knew what was wrong, and how to fix it.  HALLELUJAH!!!!!  He said the sores on top of the scar tissue were a Porokeratoma.   Porokeratoses are HARD, rock-like calluses (sweat glands that are plugged up with callus tissue).  I had two of them on the ball of my foot.  So it was like walking on 2 little rocks everywhere I went.  Barefoot on a hard floor was torture.   He then proceeded to get a instrument and gently carve the “little rocks” out of my foot.  Was it painful?  Yes, a little….BUT, totally-absolutely-worth-it!  He also assured me that in probably in about a year, my scar tissue should be much better, and the nerves in my foot will be too.

Now I'm going to work hard to get my shoulder fixed, so I can become active again!  Things are looking up!  I'm so grateful!

Attitude of Gratitude - Day 27

Day 27 - I just love holidays...even though they can wreak havoc on your eating habits.  Holidays are full of family.  That is what I like best about them.  I am grateful that I was able to spend Thanksgiving with lots of wonderful family members.  What a blessing to be surrounded by people you love, and that love you back.  That thought hit me hard as we were asking a blessing on our Thanksgiving meal.  I looked around the room and all my wonderful family members and just felt so blessed!  Some people don't spend time with their family, or they don't have any family. 
Family is seriously what it is all about!

Attitude of Gratitude - Day 26

Day 26 - I am so grateful that I live in an area where the temple is so close.  When we lived in Indiana, the temple was a 2 hour drive, one way.  I live about 7 minutes (or less) from the temple here in town.  It is so nice to have it close by!  Now I just need to be better about getting my rear there regularly!

I'm so excited for my friends in Indiana.  They are now building a temple in Indiana.  I cried when I hear them announce in General Conference that they were building one there!

Attitude of Gratitude - Day 25

Day 25 - I know I already talked about this on day 2, but I didn't talk specifics. I just said I was grateful for my family. My sweet little family unit. Now I want to talk specifically about each one. I am grateful for each sweet little member in my family.

I've talked specifically about each one of my my husband.  Man is he good to me.  He works hard to keep me happy and well taken care of.  He has been by my side for over 20 years. 

Anyone that knows my husband, knows he is SO VERY KIND.  Whenever we go to any type of gathering, he will always seek out a person that looks like they have no one to talk to.  He finds them, visits with them, and makes them feel special.

John loves to spend time with our kids.  The minute he walks in the door from work, Jace and Haley are stuck to him like super glue.  When they hear the garage door going up...they take off in a sprint.  (They don't do that when I come home :).  Wonder why?)

John is completely non-judgemental and positive.  I think I need a little of that to rub off on me!

Thanks John for being so wonderful!  I am grateful for you!

Attitude of Gratitude - Day 24

Day 24 - I know I already talked about this on day 2, but I didn't talk specifics. I just said I was grateful for my family. My sweet little family unit. Now I want to talk specifically about each one. I am grateful for each sweet little member in my family.

Haley, "Roger" is the baby in the family.  She always keeps us laughing.  She has mastered the art of belching.  Oh. man. can. that. girl. BELCH!  It just about rattles the windows!  It has become quite the little habit for her.  Heaven help me!  Hopefully, she is keeping it under control at school and church.  (I apologize if you have already witnessed it).  But, unfortunately I can only guess that it is happening there too.  Oh boy.  I would like to be a fly on the wall there!

We are so grateful to have her in our family.  She is girly, spunky, funny, smart, and outgoing (she will talk to ANYONE)!

What a total blessing! 

Sunday, November 25, 2012

Attitude of Gratitude - Day 23

Day 23 - I know I already talked about this on day 2, but I didn't talk specifics. I just said I was grateful for my family. My sweet little family unit. Now I want to talk specifically about each one. I am grateful for each sweet little member in my family.

Jace, "Jacey Boy", "Mr. Wilson", "Wilsonator" is the ONLY boy in the family.  There are times that he feels TOTALLY out numbered by his sisters.  They tend to boss him around a little too much (even the one younger then he is!)  I guess the plus side for him---he doesn't have to share a bedroom!

I love that he has the great habit of getting up every morning and he immediately makes his bed.  His bedroom is also always clean!  I hope he continues to keep this wonderful habit!

He is a great kid, with a great attitude!  He is so happy and content to just lounge around.  Just like his older sister Riley, he LOVE, LOVE, LOVES milk.  He is the main reason we have to buy 6-7 gallons every week.  Frankly, I'm not sure if he would break any bones if he fell out of a window.

I am so grateful to have such a great boy in the family!  He is such a happy kid, and brings so much love and energy to our house!  What a total blessing!

Attitude of Gratitude - Day 22

Day 22 - I know I already talked about this on day 2, but I didn't talk specifics. I just said I was grateful for my family. My sweet little family unit. Now I want to talk specifically about each one. I am grateful for each sweet little member in my family.

Brynn is the second child in the family.  She is such a good girl, and always willing to help.  She is so responsible and is learning some great skills that will help her when she has a family of her own.  This started at a young age.  She always loved to pull a stool over to the counter and help grandma with ANYTHING and EVERYTHING in the kitchen.

Whenever John has to go to his office after hours to work on a patient, he can always count on Brynn to go and assist him.  She is just great like that!

Brynn is funny like her older sister Riley, only in a different way.  Her teachers in school (that have had both Riley and Brynn) say that she is quiet, but very funny.

She was given a blanket when she was just a little baby.  It instantly became her favorite.  She still sleeps with it every single night.  Brynn was an easy-going baby...and now she is an easy-going teenager.

We sure appreciate her and love her so much!  We are lucky to have her in our family!!

Attitude of Gratitude - Day 21

Day 21 - I know I already talked about this on day 2, but I didn't talk specifics.  I just said I was grateful for my family.  My sweet little family unit.  Now I want to talk specifically about each one.  I am grateful for each sweet little member in my family.

Riley is the oldest child in our family.  She is a Spaz with a capital S!  She is completely sarcastic and funny.  Sometimes she needs to dial the crazy down a little. :)  She is a total fun teenager.  I'm pretty sure she is making John's hair turn grey and me to have ulcers.
She is completely in LOVE with Peyton Manning.  It all started when we lived in Indiana.  She became a huge Colts fan and fell instantly in love with him.  Recently, Peyton was traded to the Denver Broncos.  Now, she is a total Denver fan...or I should say Peyton fan.  She will just continue to jump from team to team as long as he is playing.  Peyton was out for awhile with a neck injury.  His first game back, Riley sat on the couch a cried through a large portion of the game.  We all had to laugh a little at her.  What I wouldn't give for her to meet Peyton.  I'm sure she would cry her eyes right on out of her head! ha ha!

This hilarious wedding picture was photoshopped by Riley.  She took my sister and brother in laws face out of their wedding picture, and put her and Peyton's face in.  Oh my!  She realizes he is married with two kids.  She also realizes that I am not much older then Peyton.  Only she says HE is not old, and I am.  To me, this picture is extra funny because my mom and dad are in it with them.

Riley LOVES to drink Milk. She has the nickname "Milk girl" by some of her previous teachers. 

She went to a football game with a half a gallon of milk to drink there. Ha ha!  Who does that?!
While I was gone one night, Riley and her friend decided to make chocolate chip cookies.  A flour fight ensued.  Needless to say, the kitchen counter, floor, bathroom, shower, etc. were a total mess.  She knows how to do-it-up-right.  On a side note, they forgot to spray the pan, so the cookies were cemented to the pan.  Just lovely.

Riley is smart and always has good grades.  It seems like it is just easy for her.  Things just come natural.

She is also a fantastic piano player.  Like I said, things just come natural!

We are so happy that she is a member of our family!!

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Attitude of Gratitude - Day 20

"I have found that, rather than dwelling on the negative, if we will take a step back and consider the blessings in our lives, including seemingly small, sometimes overlooked blessings, we can find greater happiness."
—Thomas S. Monson
I am so grateful for these wonderful, inspired men of God that lead the church.  It is such a blessing to have their wisdom, guidance, and no-nonsense advice and council.  I love that they just "say-it-like-it-is!  What a blessing!

Monday, November 19, 2012

Attitude of Gratitude - Day 19

Day 19 - I'm grateful that I have a hard working husband.  He works hard as a dentist and his patients truly love him.  He is so honest and has such integrity.  He would never tell any of his patients they needed some work done, if they truly didn't. 

One day when I was in his office, I had one of his patients tell me that she was going to take him on a cruise with her.  I just laughed and said, "Have fun!"

Attitude of Gratitude - Day 18

Day 18 - I am so grateful for modern medicine.  I have sure had my fair share of doctor appointments lately.  Is that what happens when you turn 40? (and dang it, I'm going to be 41 soon)!  Bugger!

Back in July I had a collagenoma cut out of my foot.  I am still dealing with that little lovely.  I now have quite a large amount of scar tissue on the bottom of my foot that I am dealing with.  Next week I will see a podiatrist to ask him a few questions.  Hopefully I can get that all squared away so I can start exercising regularly again.  So, my left foot is all jacked up.

I have also been seeing a Physical Therapist because I hurt my shoulder some how.  I'm not quite sure what the heck I did.  I just woke up one morning with a shoulder issue.  I'm starting to wonder if it has anything to do with my bike wreck that happened over a year ago, or maybe I just do some serious gymnastics in my sleep.

Not sure if I blogged about that joyous occasion where I became better acquainted with my driveway.  Yes, I was introduced to my driveway when I was riding my bike and multi-tasking.  Riding, braking, messing with my garage door opener, wet driveway.  I went over the front and down...hard, oh so hard.  The icing on the cake was all the roofers on my next door neighbor's roof watching it all play out.  Good heck.  I'm sure it wasn't even a little bit graceful and I'm quite certain I swore a couple of times.  So, my right shoulder is all jacked up.

I am hoping that I will be good as new soon, or at least as new as an old 40 year old.

Saturday, November 17, 2012

Attitude of Gratitude - Day 17

Day 17 - I am grateful for blogging. It is really the only way that I journal. I'm not good at sitting down with a pen and journal. There are things happening in my life that I want to remember. I know that my writing is not perfect. I'm sure that most of my posts are not grammatically correct. Commas and quotes all over the place...right where they shouldn't be. If you are an English teacher or some kind of grammar nazi I would advise you to move on. Frankly, I don't care if my writing style drives you nuts. It's for me. It's for my husband and kids. It's for my friends and family. By the way, I write about as well as I do math.

Friday, November 16, 2012

Attitude of Gratitude - Day 16

Day 16 - Just sitting here thinking of all the things I am grateful for.  It's funny how long your list can be when you really just sit down and think about it.  Just so many blessings in my life.

Today I am grateful for music.  All kinds of music.  I grew up playing the violin.  Do I play well now?  Not really.  But, playing the violin has given me a huge appreciation for classical music.  I also grew up doing ballet, which has also added to my appreciation and love for classical music.

I love listening to the piano being played.  Not so much when I play it.  (But, I do enjoy playing the piano--just need to practice a little more.)

I love listening to just about any instrument.  Some of my very favorites are the acoustic guitar, piano, and cello.  When I was younger, I wanted to learn how to play the drums, or guitar.  Still wish I knew how. 

I have been singing with my 7 sisters since I was a young girl.  Mostly 3 to 4 part harmony.  We love the opportunity to sing together.  When we practice, we usually spend more time talking and laughing, then practicing.  When my dad was very sick and close to dying, he was talking to my oldest sister Lori.  He asked her to make sure that we keep singing.  "Keep singing" was what he whispered to her the day before he passed away.  Nothing could put a smile on his face more, then hearing his girls sing.  There are times now, when I am singing, that I have to choke back the tears because I can picture my dad sitting there with a great big smile on his face.  And sometimes, I'm not able to keep the tears back.

I remember several years ago, my sisters and I were the opening act for the group "Reunion".  Two of the men in the group were years ago, in the group "The Letterman".  We actually opened for them in Logan, Boise, and a couple of times in Idaho Falls.  When we were in Boise, the day of the concert, we went to the State Capital.  We went and sang in Governor Dirk Kempthorne's office.  After singing for the Governor, we went and sang to the members of House of Representatives--who were in session.  Before we sang, they were having what seemed like a "heated discussion".  We sang a song called "Love in a Home".  Later we were told by people there, how that instantly changed the mood and feeling in the room.  Oh, the amazing power of music.

I love listening to, and singing hymns.  Nothing more powerful then hymns, and nobody better at singing hymns then the Mormon Tabernacle Choir.  I didn't have much of a taste for them when I was young, but now I love to listen to them.

Really, I can't think of any music that I don't like...except for maybe the recorder, kazoo, and chopsticks played over-and-over-and-over.  Oh, and Rap music.  Oh man, I can't stand Rap music.

“Where words fail, music speaks.”― Hans Christian Andersen

Thursday, November 15, 2012

Attitude of Gratitude - Day 15

Day 15 - Every month I meet with a small group of ladies.  Before we meet, we each read the same article and then come together and discuss it...with yummy treats of course!!

It's kind of like a book club, but with articles about all kinds of different to be a better mom, ways to be more organized, the list goes on.  It has been such a fun thing.  The ladies I meet with are all smart, funny, and insightful.  Sometimes we get a little off the topic, because we have so much fun visiting!!  I always go home feeling rejuvenated and I learn a lot from each of them.  I am very grateful for my Power of Moms group.  You ladies ROCK!

Attitude of Gratitude - Day 14

Day 14 - I am grateful that my husband likes to take our kids on little (and sometimes big) outings. Normally, he takes them one at a time...but this outing is with Riley and Haley. (Haley looks so small in that kayak!)  What a good dad! 

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Attitude of Gratitude - Day 13

Day 13 - I am so happy to be a stay-at-home-mom!  I love it.  I love that my kids feel safe and I also love that if they need me while they are at school, I can be right there for them.  (Although sometimes I DO get annoyed if they need me TOO much.) 

I have started working at my husband's dental office twice a week for a few hours.  It is amazing to me how behind I get with my house, my calling, etc. just being gone for a couple of hours a week.  Thankfully my schedule is VERY flexible and I can boss my boss around.  (Ha ha!  Just kidding John!)  So technically I am still a stay at home mom.

I love being able to pick my kids up from school and be home with them after school.  This might sound a little crazy, but I love it when it is a cold day...I go to the school early so I can be one of the first cars in the pick up line.  I have the van nice and toasty warm so when they come out of the school, they can jump right in and be nice and warm.  Just a mama bear protecting her cubs.

I'm so lucky to have such a wonderful, hard working husband!  He makes it possible for me to be home with my kids.  Thanks John!

Attitude of Gratitude - Day 12

Day 12 - When my younger brother came home from his mission in Mexico, the first thing he did was come into the house and lay down on the carpet.  He planted himself down, face first, with his nose pressed against the carpet.  He then proceeded to tell us about some of the living conditions where he served.

I am so blessed to live in a cute, little house, in a cute little neighborhood.  I think I will go press my nose in my carpet.  (But I may have to vacuum first.)

Attitude of Gratitude - Day 11

Day 11 - I am so grateful to have been born in a country that I can worship when, where, and how I want.  I am blessed to have grown up in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.  I am a Mormon...I know it, I live it, I LOVE it! 

I am grateful for the Book of Mormon and for a living Prophet and Apostles on the earth today.  How could I ever get through this challenging world without them?  The gospel of Jesus Christ brings me so much peace and happiness!

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Attitude of Gratitude - Day 10

I am always so grateful for my health.  I can see, hear, smell, touch, taste, walk, talk, the list could go on!  I have seen people go through some major illnesses and am ever so grateful to be healthy.  I have gone through a few set backs with a foot surgery and problems with my shoulder, but when I am back to feeling good again, I will start running once again.  You take your health for granted...until you are sick.  I am so blessed!

Attitude of Gratitude - Day 9

Day 9 - I am getting behind here.  I really AM grateful...just been super busy.

I am so grateful for the Young Women leaders that I work with.  They are all fun, beautiful, amazing ladies, and they are so much fun to be around!!  They are always willing to do anything.  What a blessing!  It makes my "job" as a Young Women President SO. MUCH. EASIER!

Last night was our YW in Excellence.  It was a blast!  This year we did a little something different.  Here are a few pictures of the "BIG GAME"...