Friday, December 28, 2012

30 years

Recently while I was at my mom's house, I asked her to get some of Brian's things out so we could look at them.  There are a couple of boxes in a storage room full of some of Brian's old things.

 Inside the box, there was old trophies, scouting items, old school papers, clothing, a hand-held football video game (that still works), etc.  There was also clothing from the night he was killed.  Sweats that had been cut off of him.  (You can read more about the accident here.)

This year marks 30 years since the accident.  It is so weird talking to my mom about it now, and getting her perspective on everything.  My mom was 41 years old when Brian was killed at age 12.  I am 41 now, and Jace (my son) will be 12 in 5 months.  So weird.

Jace really does remind me a lot of Brian.  Brian was just an all around good kid.  He kept his room clean, was good at sports, amazing piano player, just so multi-talented. 

As my mom and I went through Brian's things, there was times that we were laughing hard and other times very quiet, blinking back the tears.

We found a folder that he used in 7th grade.  The folder had writing all over it.  We were cracking up at some of the things we found and read.

There was a also a letter from Brian's friend Sonja.  It was just like slipping back in the past. 

Brian had a crush on Melanie when he died.  I remember Melanie coming over with her mom after the accident.  They brought a poinsettia with them.

It's amazing how much I remember from 30 years ago, and I was only 11 years old at the time.

We miss Brian a lot.  It has been such a long time since we have seen him.  What a blessing to know that we will one day see him again.

You can read another blog post about Brian Here.

Saturday, December 1, 2012

Attitude of Gratitude - Day 30

Day 30 - My last day for my "Attitude of Gratitude".  I have spent the entire month of November posting about things I am grateful for.  It has really helped me to see all the blessings in my life.

The last day of November also just so happens to be my birthday.  I turned 41 this year and it happened to fall on a Friday.  Do you know why birthdays are so great on a Friday?
  • Kids come home from school and you don't have to bark at them to start their homework.
  • You can relax and go out, and it's not a school/work night.
  • You don't have to set an alarm that night, knowing that you are sleeping in the next morning.
It was kind of an uneventful day, but it was a good day.  I spent the morning cleaning my house.  I enjoyed cleaning, with a little Christmas music in the background.  I also spent a lot of time on the phone with several of my siblings.

Before I knew it, it was noon and I still hadn't showered.  Shortly after my shower (before make-up and hair being done), there was a knock at my door.  I was thinking, "Oh crap!  I don't look too cute right now!"  I wasn't going to answer the door, but did it anyway.  I was completely shocked to see my friend from Canada standing there with a bouquet of flowers in her hand and a birthday card.  Our friends from dental school were traveling to Utah from Canada and stopped in town on there way through to buy flowers, and drive over and drop them off.  Thanks Mike and Shantel!  What a wonderful sweet surprise!  Gosh, I am blessed with great friends!

That night, John and I went out to dinner to celebrate.  After dinner he wanted to take me to the mall or somewhere to buy me something.  I must be getting old, because I just wanted to go home and relax.  Oh man, that has GOT to be a sign of old age.  Don't worry, I will cash-in on a little birthday present later. :)

It IS a little painful getting older, and looking older, but I am trying to grow old gratefully.